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and even though the moment passed me by i still can't turn away. cuz all the dreams you never thought you'd lose got tossed along the way. and letters that you never meant to send got lost or thrown away

and now we're grown up orphans and never knew their names. we don't belong to no one. that's a shame. but you could hide beside me maybe for a while. and I won't tell no one your name. and I won't tell 'em your name

and scars are souvenirs you never lose. the past is never far. did you lose yourself somewhere out there? did you get to be a star? and don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are

we grew up way too fast and now there's nothing to believe. and reruns all become our history. a tired song keeps playing on a tired radio. and I won't tell no one your name. and I won't tell 'em your name. i won't tell em' your name

i won't tell em' your name

i think about you all the time. but I don't need the same. it's lonely where you are. come back down and I won't tell 'em your name

name.goo goo dolls
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arrgh. i should get out of this coz this isn't going anywhere. i know i'm still alone. i am alone (sigh).

i started the day yesterday by hailing to glorietta with my brother to buy gifts for my mom, younger sister and younger brother. it really feels good when you know that what you're going to give them would really be appreciated. i love giving gifts. i just wish i had a lot of money to buy gifts for EVERYONE. hehehe. after a little shopping, i rushed back to katipunan. i was late for the very incredible vday. saan ka makakahanap ng mga adik na tao na dalawang araw na lang before christmas eh magsasama-sama pa para lang maglaro ng volleyball. mga hayok!!! love you guys for that =)before, i get intimidated with my orgmates who play so well. but after the game yesterday, narealize ko na masaya naman palang magvnyt.hehe. after the vday, we had dinner at dannylicious(grepah life c'mon!)and then had some coffee at starbucks (one more sticker and i'm gonna get my second planner! weee!). and since ben brought a magic sing, aba, party na sa mansion! come what may! basta kantahan lang tayo. people were not contented with mere singing. eventually we had drinks. at sinong unang tinamaan? "shut up jc!" hahaha! ang ingay lang talaga natin kagabi. it's like everyone was required to yell at each other. and everyone was speaking in english, correct grammar at diction pa. mga hunghang. haha. ben you probably realized that you should have drank alcohol too. mas okay na na ang sakit ng ulo mo ay dahil sa tama ng gin,hindi dahil sa mga taong lasing sa paligid mo. haha. at hindi talaga ako makaget-over sa www.magicmic.com na yun. anyway, saya ulet shet.grabe vc. we were together for more than 12 hours. hehe. spontaneity is equal to sooo much fun. and last night was bliss. labyu guys.

yun.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!


P.S. hindi naman tayo nagkakasawaan sa mga pagmumukha ng isa't isa ano?

i missed you spunjeeh. it's been weeks since i last posted an entry here. well, i guess i have lots of things to share and i might as well put them all here.

hmm...

12.15.06 / 06:00

the annual lantern parade didn't push through. bwakinangshet. still, LA, roge, jowie, ben, jervin and i met up infront of BA. we took a loooong walk (i.e. around the acad oval) when the road was quite cleared from tibaks. while walking, i started this game (that has no name) with ben and jervin. whoever gets to be greeted by people the most number of times wins. they should greet us with our names, simple waves and hi's are not qualified. haha. by the way, who won the game?? anyway, after the parade, we went to wok dis way to have dinner. jorge, normaine, boni, clarc&boyfriendAJ were also there. afterwards, we went to tribu, had a few bottles of beer, and played the lasing bobo game. tribu was better than drews,crowd-wise hehehe!

12.16.06 / 09:00

went to greenhills to shop with my family. 'twas tiring.

~/ 17:00

when we got home we went straight to SM pampanga (exhaustion wasn't really in our vocabulary that time). we wanted to see the giant lantern festival live, it was held at the ampitheater at the back of the mall. goodness, hundreds and hundreds of people plagued the place. 'twas crazy. my mom wss kinda scared of what could happen (stampedes ya know..) and so we decided to go home.

12:18.06 / 16:00

went to FF north edsa to workout. i spotted this guy who looks like atom. kinda cute. rarr.

~/ 19:00

met up with jc, ben, jowie and clarc.

~/ 22:00

it's bill's party @ antipolo!!! it was so0o cool. live bands, strobe lights, smoke machine, and lotsa booze! lasing bobo game again! well i had fun.

12.19.06 / 02:00

the party's not over yet. we went videoke-ing inside when everyone else was just chillin'. dancing to the tune of footloose was very FFish. hay. more fun!!! we were singing til 04:30.

~/ 10:00

jervin, jowie, clarc and i met up with jc and ben AGAIN to watch the UAAP volleyball games. and how about another boracay-attack plan while watching the game? i assumed it was just out of hunger and lack of sleep. hahaha!

~/ 13:00

went to sm north to have lunch. as i have said before, the problem with too much happiness is that it is immediately reciprocated. but i think we're fine now, right?

~/ 16:00

tambay @ starbucks rustan's with jervin jowie and roge. eto na mehn. this was the time when we had all our sentiments, feelings and realizations shared. the thought of leaving school in three months was so heavy for us, for me. three and a half years with VC was so precious. all the vdays, tambays, spontaneous activities were soooooo much fun. i learned a lot from you guys. spending time with VC is like a celebration of life. mushy, im sorry. i saw the beauty of VC when i went beyond what i barely see from it. quoting from bill, "dito ko nakilala ang mga totoong tao.." i feel so honored being a part of this org. and i feel so sorry for the people who didn't take the risk of going beyond the perimeters of the organization. but it's never too late guys. you are always welcome in this circle of extreme happiness!

oops! we've been together for almost 24 hours now!!!

~/ 20:00

(may konsepto pa pala tayo ng pag-uwi guys..)
i was surprised to see a lot of cars parked in front of the house. it was my tito's despedida party and i didn't know, haha. i was tired, but i still managed to spend time with my cousins, nieces, aunts and uncles. i had four bottles of beer. i'm loving beer in these times. it was way easier to get 'some' sleep.

12.20.06 / 00:00

hello bed.
haay. life that was!

three humble hearts left
two souls ascended
one prayer for peace

arrividerci, benevoli tipi!

this can't be happening! is this some sort of God's huling hirit? i have a very positive outlook for this sem, my last sem, until i heard this news from a classmate. no, you cannot just pass us to another professor. the freedom of having to choose whom to get was junked.

i'm still hoping that we (meaning us, the concerned students of Ma'am Aguila) can do something with this. i have this strong feeling that we will be retained with ma'am. haha. or i just don't really wanna make my last sem miserable.

please. hear us on this. (ayan ben, ahaha! *sarreh for the error*)

last night was the SEROKS premiere night at greenbelt 3. well, there were technical problems during the screening. but i still think the film turned out to be fine. there were a lot of media men that came. i wanna see their reviews on their papers.

personally, i have to commend the cinematography (the xerox machine-like shots were awesome). pabulus lighting sir neil! clap*clap

after the screening, there was a dinner party for the cast and crew and other important people at sigafredo's. the food didn't taste good. hehe. sorry. bu we still had a good time though.

well..i'm just waiting for the premiere night pics. uhm, jasper...upload.. hihi.

why is everyone talking about grades??

is this what life is about?? grades??

chekka lang.

why not talk about freaky and bizaare experiences like going to the Emergency Room and spending the whole day there?

arrgh. i'm not gonna go back into that place again (unless im the one "on emergency").

iskeyri.

everyone's bored with this break. no internet = shit. no internet and cable = hell. meron dito sa bahay, pero mahirap ma-avail, madaming kaagaw.

it's just funny that people do not run out of moans. during the hell week, they'd whine about excessive schoolwork. during the break, they'd complain about boredom. anune??

damn this CRS, i wanna see my grades. errr.

anyway, wala lang. i just wanted to put something here. ehehe.

okay. the past 24 hours were full of tension and anger and bitchiness. okay. im quite okay now. and i want to share something to you guys. aisha and i hanged out at starbucks this afternoon. of course we talked about this 'conflict'thingy. in the middle of this talk, aisha noticed a group of students from a nearby table taking pictures of themselves - barkada pictures. i saw that too. aisha just sighed. and i just said, "parang pelikula 'to ah.."

i never assumed that this problem will punctuate our friendship. well nadala lang tayo sa mga kanya-kanyang emotions natin kaya ang bigat ng mga nasabi natin.

we all wanted that moment back - that moment when we were just having fun.

what we expected from you guys was the concern as a friend more than the "responsibility". fine, you haven't really thought of texting me that time, fine by me. but what about aisha? she's been with you all afternoon up until before the list was released. haven't you thought of her? you could've told her, she's the one who badly needs to be informed. and definitely she would text me about it.

anyway, yeah, you call this immaturity. i also think it is. but i hope you understand what we feel. if you were in our situation right now, what would you feel?

i am not happy with what we are all going through. we're hurt. but im hoping that one of these days, this would heal.